A x I s T z ; JenniFeR .♥

Exam Stress

I feel like deleting my FB, my twitter, my whatsapp, my blog and every single entertainment i got but if i ever do that, then where can i take a break from?

Sometimes i can't really focus and people came to disturb me in the middle of my mugging by asking me to do this and that for them and i have the tenancy to procrastinate at times.

I dislike all these distractions so much but i seriously need to work it out now! Time is not enough and i got so many things i need to do..

Last night i can't sleep because i have flow into memories lane, and i kinda miss a good friend of mine who we used to be so close, i miss all the goods that this friend of mine have done for me and treated me like a princess. I really do miss you so much that i lost my sleep. But well, we go on our separate way and living our life perfectly.

Okay okay, no more distraction and i'm gonna do my stuff right now! Bye!

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11:46 PM

24 Feb

Headed to work in the noon and bloody hell i got serious cramp! I swear this is the worst cramp ever in my life. Steph went to break around 1 plus and around 2.45PM i text her that i need her to help me get warm water as it was really bad cramp. And around 3PM steph called me and she asked me whether i eat dark chocolate and i told her yes and i asked her how? Really very pain and my voice changed. Almost feel like crying..

And around 3 plus steph came back with warm water and she was so shocked to see my face, totally white pale face. Seriously i felt like dying at that moment. Now i can understand the feeling for ssl. I drank hot milo when i came to work and after the warm water steph got for me, still not enough, she saw me in pain and asked me to go back but i rejected because i can't even move. Then she went to get me 2 more warm water and after that i felt much better.

She so scare that i will cry. LOl. Can see from her expression. And she told me when i said it's painful it means very very painful because i really have high endurance in pain. Even the gate incident i didn't even complain pain, and some incident which i got hit by some stuff till it bleed but i did not even complain pain but this cramp really is killing me inside out.

I swear i almost black out because it was so painful. And heard when giving birth it will be more painful than this cramp -.-" But well, all women have to go thru this, guys will never understand.

So guys out there who are attached, when your gf give you attitude once a month just give in to them because we can't control our temper, it's PMS. You think we want it? We can't even control at times. Trust me, even the nicest girl on earth, with extreme good temper can never get away from this, maybe they will just hide at one corner and cry because it's mood swing.

And when your gf complain cramp, don't leave her alone, get her some chocolates or warm water or hot milo and keep your mouth shut because we are in pain to even give you a response. The more you talk, the more irritate we get. I don't know about others but that's how i feel and sometimes when i get hot drink for my gfs due to their cramp, and i started to talk to them and i don't even get response from them and i tend to shut myself after that till they get better.

Sometimes i heard from my gfs that their bf find them giving attitude for nth and get really irritated by it. But we all know this, because we can't control and we tend to find fault at time. Yea, just give in because we don't mean it though..
And when they have cramps, the bf just ignored because they tot it's nothing serious or they are faking it. -.-" Do you know your ignorance can cause something huge to happen after that?

Oh my, sometimes i wish we can exchange our soul into each other body so that we can experience how the other gender is going thru. Just like the Secret Garden Drama.. LOl

Anyway after that 3rd cup of hot hot warm water, i'm fine, and work as usual. Nothing much. After that headed home with the rest :)

Just to share the above, nothing to shy about because we all go thru this and guys also have to know how to handle when they met such situations even when they are with friends, colleagues or strangers?
I do met some nice guys who went to get chocolates and hot drinks for their friends when they know about this situation. So gentlemen of them and i'm impressed when they know what to do.

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1:01 AM

17 Feb

Headed to mug with xp and we left around evening..

18 Feb

Headed to work as usual and work with boss, chat alot :) Nothing much

19 Feb

Headed to work as usual, after work headed home..

20 Feb

Headed school and after sch headed home to rest

21 Feb

Sch as usual and after sch headed Bugis to get my shoe with xp since both our shoe give way :( And i bought a shoe in the end after much considerations. Sorry to xp for waiting for me :/ I'm fickle minded whenever i wan to buy smth..

22 Feb

Headed to sch as usual and after sch headed home.. Xp was sick and hope she have speedy recovery !!

23 Feb

Mug at home and nothing much, steamboat at home with my family. This is seriously random!

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12:35 AM

It's been awhile since i last blog.

And regarding my previous post about my bag, just one day after i post it. My beloved mum have found it when she is back home from somewhere. Apparently she told me it was on the shelter above and she need to get a bamboo stick to hook it down, and there was a uncle passerby told my mum to forget it because she will never be able to get it down. But well, sorry to this whoever uncle, you have asked the wrong person to give up because my MUM will never give up on anything which she find it is possible :) And so my mum brought back my bag and wash it for me :)

Totally awesome :) And this save up my troubles and everything..

Well, it have come to end of my lessons for my 2nd year and next week is my prelims! So fast, gonna mug now and goodbye everyone!

Have an awesome week and weekends while i'm gonna mug my life with it..

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10:36 PM

Anyway i was washing my bag the other day and guess what? It never came back anymore. My bag just flew till don't know where, and left the 3 clips that i clip onto it on the bamboo. Sian, mum was saying why i hang my bag like that and stuff, but how i know it will flew away? Lucky it wasn't a very expensive bag..

And my footwear just give way today.. Tell me what's more? Need to get another bag and footwear..

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12:04 AM

16 Feb

Headed to school in the morning and i received this from Wan Ling! Awww, she was really really sweet! Tell me why my classmate so sweet? And we seldom hang out, only during lesson? And today mark the end of our lesson, it's so fast! Like in a blink of eyes and the semester have ended.

Anyway this classmate of mine was really sweet. I still remembered the first day of our class, the very first lesson, i was the first to reach class and waited for Vanessa to arrive.

And there is this girl who came to sit beside me, yes right beside me. She asked me for permission whether anyone sitting beside me and i said "No." And the first thing in my mind was "Why there is so many seats around and she choose to sit beside me?" Okay this is random.

And then Vanessa came and lesson started. During break time, me and Vanessa went off to get some stuff and she was alone. Then Vanessa asked me "Is she your friend?" I said "No." Then we headed back class and i started to chat with her. Yes, i initiate the conversation and break the ice. Then we started to ask about our units and stuff, and happened to know she is from 3rd year and she took psychology as well. Then we started chatting and stuff.

Coming to the end of lesson, she asked me whether she can join us for lessons in future and i agreed. We then started to exchange number and stuff.

And during the 2nd lesson, i asked her about psychology stuff and i asked her whether she can pass me her notes, and guess what? She brought it for me during the 3rd lesson! So nice of her, and she stayed at the east too :)

Still remember she have surgery on her hands and it looks painful to me and i wished her speedy recovery.
To be honest, she is really nice girl who focus on her studies alot, in the sense that she really out in effort for the thing that she do.

At the end of our lesson, i would help her get food and she will help me get coffee as we have classes after that and we would chat about some stuff. There was one time when LX was at canteen and she saw WL buying coffee and she was staring at her because she was really beautiful, just like the girl next door. Then when WL came to pass me coffee and i passed her the small bites, LX was shocked that we know each other. Then i told her, she is my classmates and she told me she look very pretty. Yup, and i totally agree plus she is really nice girl.

Some people out there might be thinking she just want your companion and stuff, but i don mind at all even this is her intention because she is responsible for her studies. She never skipped any lessons at all and we are always engaging in the topic well. And since we can hit off, then why not just be classmate?

And it's really nice knowing you too! It's your 3rd year and your final year as well, i wish you all the best in your studies and have an awesome graduation ahead. Nice people like you will definitely be blessed! :)

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11:42 PM

14 Feb

Alot of people have asked me how i have celebrated my Valentine Day. Basically i have school till late noon and after that headed home. Nothing special about it since i don't even have a partner to celebrate Valentine with. And this year celebration with friends was also cancelled since we are pretty busy with our own stuff. Lunch in school with the usual cliques.

However i receive this cookie from Nana, aww she is really really sweet! Was kinda shocked when she passed it to me during class :) Thank you babe! I didn't do anything for my friends this valentine and i felt so embarrassed. I'll do it next year!

15 Feb

Headed to school as usual and nothing much happened. After school headed home.. Tired max!

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11:17 PM

12 Feb

Headed to school in the noon and have my test plus lesson, after class headed to work as usual. After work we headed mac for supper, i didn't know about the all day value meal thingy till SSL told me. I feel so mountain turtle for a moment. Hahaha. Anyway enjoy the short while with them and show them a video which SSL told me about it while we are working on sat. I seriously have a good laugh!

13 Feb

Stayed at home to mug, some stuff happened.. But no point saying, life still goes on :)

Remember what doesn't kill you make you stronger!

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12:01 AM

10 Feb

Headed to school as usual, and after school headed to work. It's been awhile since i work and have to get used to it. Nothing really happened. After work headed home..

11 Feb

Headed to work as usual, lady boss text me and said lunch on her since our baby is 6 months old tomorrow. And guess what we have for lunch?? Wo Ai Tai Mei (Been wanting to try that for so long but i don know how to order.. ), and Sarpino's Pizza. So sinful but sooooo nice :) I have 2 craving satisfied :) But we are still not full! Headed with boss to get Soup Spoon for lunch. Hahahahaha. I have mushroom soup :) Seldom i will post what i eat but i don't know why i'm kinda happy with what i ate today :)

Anyway work was fine, and after work headed home. Make up classes tml :( Like again.......... well, just get over with it.

Anyway today boss came and he said " How's your head? Haha, everyday must come and check to see it's getting better." Awww, i don't know why but i really felt he is so fatherly though :x I felt like i'm a small girl for that very moment. The way he spoke was really nice :) Such a nice concern which brighten up my day so so so so so so much.

Alright blog soon :) Kinda like this pics, so candid!

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11:34 PM

If you are asking me for help, i think i have the right to know what have happened?
You always said i'm one liner, and when i started to reply you longer message, i get one liner from you.
You always asked me what happened, and expect me to tell you the whole story. But why when i asked you what have happened for 3 times, you choose to ignore the question? Even if you don't feel like answering, just tell me straight, at least i will feel much better.
If just avoiding the question was to switch topic, then don blame me for giving you one liner answer.

The way you asked for help, it's like demanding for an answer, and after that end with a thanks.

Everytime i text you with urgent matter, you don't even reply my text. Sometimes I got pissed off, and i asked you to throw away your phone whenever i meet up with you. And when you randomly text me with urgent matter, i always have the urge to do the same thing back to you, but i decided not to as it might be really important for you.

Although we knew each other for quite long, but i don't really understand you. You claims that we are close friends, at times i see your efforts in meeting up. But i don't know why now i don't see it. Last year, i saw you at JP which was really random, and we started to text awhile, then stop for a period, and continue to text and stop. And i still rmb that incident where you got drunk and you sent me random texts which can just make this friendship came to an end, but when you are sober you seek for forgiveness. I forgive you because i know drunken words can never be taken account for. And you told me to delete everything you have sent, and good enough my phone got stolen as well. Peace for you and me.

Sometimes i wish to tell you, just confide in any of us, because we are always here. Since you claims that we are your close friends, then why do you still things from us? Just because we seldom meet up? Do you know that your actions just make me/us worried for you at times. Your random MIA, habit of not replying text, not answering calls just make me/us so worried. I somehow wish you could change for the better..

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1:03 AM

7th Feb

Headed to school as usual and have my test, early in the morning filled with texts and concerns from the incident. Thanks i'm fine :) Heard from XP about some stuff and told her what to do. She was really scare as she never encounter such stuff, so i told her to make a call to the relevant party and after class we headed back to Bedok and accompanied her to Police station to make report. Told her not to worry as everything will be alright..

After that headed home to rest and study for test. Glad that the bump subside and not so obvious already :)

8th Feb

Headed to school as usual and have my test, after school headed back home. Nothing much happened.

9th Feb

Headed to school as usual and have my test as well. So many tests going on this week..

And regarding how am i going to handle the so called 'friends' incident, i have though about it. And since i won't be seeing them that often as the term have come to an end soon. I will just meet them somewhere in April. Hence i decided to make everything less ugly. Just end this term in a very nice way, since i know we will never be meeting again after this module end, why not just end this nicely? You happy, i happy :)

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12:39 AM

6th Feb

After school headed home to rest awhile before headed to Queenstown to meet lady boss to her place to help her prepare stuff for the party at the evening. Around 7 plus we have quick bite before waiting for the rest to arrive at 8PM and we lao yu sheng first before we start our dinner. The food was great and we have great time together. After eating we rest awhile and we started the games.

It was still alright, think most of them have fun there. And after that around 11 plus we play this game that was to know each other better. It was quite nice game, but i guess we are pretty familiar with each other that we can guess everyone correctly. Haha

Around 12 plus we headed back. And we walked out of the condo, it was quite dark and i press the button and pushed the gate, i walked out, but i walk back to grab the gate for the rest to come out, and guess what? The bloody gate just rebound and hit my forehead HARD! No joke, within a minute, a huge bump just popped out on my forehead. It sounds funny right, but surprisingly no one laugh at all, they were so worried. It was seriously painful ttm. The first thing on my mind was "Shit, it's gonna bleed." Everyone around me was really shocked and some wanted to help me rubbed my forehead. I rejected as it was really painful, and then they rushed back to boss's place to get me ice pack to put on my bump. Eunice and her sis was really running/walking fast and calling boss on the way, while the rest catch up later.

Then we all sat at the living room, everyone was really quiet looking at me putting the ice pack. They said if they were me, they would cry immediately, they would faint when they saw the bump. LOl, they asked me why i didn't cry? And said i can really endure pain. Although it's really painful but bearable? And everyone keep staring at me to see whether i'm alright, i told them i am. And they keep on asking is it painful? And to break the silent, i told them why not you go get hit and come back tell me is it painful, then boss started laughing. And i felt better when they laugh, but within seconds, they became silent and stare at me again!! I was pretty stress and keep on ask them to talk and ignore my presence as it was really embarrassing enough.

About half an hour later, we decided to make a move, thanks Sasa for helping me to make another ice pack. And when we reached the gate, they tested the gate to see whether really it rebound -.-" I mean seriously i don't have to joke about this. It really rebound back when they pushed the gate.

This is when CO told the rest, "You know Jen (This is what everyone called me) is because wanted to push the gate for you all then get hit anot? She already walk out of the gate but came back to push the gate for you all.." Then i stare at him and asked, omg you saw it? He was very observant. But at that very moment, i felt really appreciated, i don't know why. I just felt that my action was being appreciate by someone. Haha. After that we took cab back home..

I just wanna say thank you to everyone. Thanks for everyone concerns, when such incident happened, i expected laughter as it funny that someone get hit and huge bump formed immediately after that. But i'm really surprised none of them laugh at all, they were super worried about me. For the very first time in my life, i felt so thankful, i felt the care that i received from them, the genuine worried/concern from them. They never even give a second thoughts of feeling so lazy to walk back and stuff which they usually will complain. They were really shocked as they have never seen such stuff happened from me before.

And if you asked me whether i will still go back to hold the gate for them after this incident, i will tell you i will. Not trying to be heroine or something. But imagine if i never went back to grab the gate, the person behind me will get hit, which is even worst right? I rather i get hit then to see someone else get hit. Because conscience/ guiltiness kills badly.

Although the second day, the bump subsided abit, it was seriously painful, i get headache on and off thru the lecture. Sasa (Who is a nurse to be) said because of huge impact thats why will get headache so it's pretty normal. And thanks each and everyone for your text, i'm really alright. Hahahaa. Thanks bosses for calling and the texts :)

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12:31 AM